Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Cross-roads

I'm sitting at another cross roads in my life. I just got a score back from my most recent Anatomy and Physiology Exam for the Lab portion and I did not do well at all. I remember while taking the exam(as it was an unusual way to take an exam. It was with about 20 other people and we had to go from station to station.) At any rate, in the middle of the exam I had the thought come to my mind that maybe I'm not cut out for the Medical Assisting route. I'm just not getting it into my brain and its not working. I'm not able to understand it clearly enough to be able to get good grades. I got a 44% on this last exam and I studied for it. I had been studying for some time during the past 3 weeks and I'm not understanding why I did so bad.

I've had the idea run through my mind that maybe I should change my minor but the minor that keeps coming to mind is not an "honorable" minor in my opinion. I guess I just have high hopes for myself. I've been having the idea of opening a family bakery. I am thinking about changing my minor to a culinary arts minor. But how would that help me now or even in a year or two to gain the money that I need to start paying off school loans. I had big plans with graduating with my associates in 2013 and starting to work as a medical assistant to be able to start paying off our loans. As I contemplate my options, I am stuck. I have the feeling that I will be able to do whatever the Lord has planned for me. I know that He won't let me do something that will completely destroy me. Yet, I get excited about the Culinary Arts minor and I am excited about the Medical Assisting minor as well.

I just have this fear that I won't be able to support my family with a good occupation. I want the best for my children and my wife yet I won't be able to start working as a councilor until after I graduate with my masters. What am I going to do until that moment arrives? I can't just open up a shop to have this bakery with a ton of debt and I won't be able to start the business off nicely without money. What am I supposed to do. I sometimes have the thought that I will be able to pass my anatomy and physiology class but then I also have the thought that I won't be able to and that I'm just going to be in deep trouble once it comes time for the end of the semester. I honestly don't have any clue on what I need to do. All I know is that God lives. Jesus is the Christ. I know that I love serving other people and that I want to always give my service and help those that stand in need. I've also discovered recently that I have a hard time receiving help because I feel that I am able to help myself. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the only true Church on the Earth. When I say that, I mean that it is the only Church that has the COMPLETENESS of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I pray that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ will help me through my journey on this Earth so that I can become the best servant that I can be. That I will be able to support my family and give the kind of life to my children that I never had.

Funny thing is, I know that not many people read this blog but it is my way of writing in my journal. I type a lot faster than I do writing and I don't feel like I am using as much time typing as I do writing out in a notebook. I have yet to find the best way to type in a journal but having my entries be organized. I hope that I will be able to find answers to my current problems. Oh did I mention that registration for Fall Semester is next week and I am stuck with this dillemma?!?!? I guess I have to move forward with faith and pray that Heavenly Father will continue to bless me. I need to hurry and finish reading a few articles for an essay that was due yesterday that I wasn't able to finish. Life keeps ticking even when we don't want it to sometimes. Hopefully we'll talk later! :)

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Baked Goods

So I haven't posted in awhile and I am in a baking type of mood lately and therefore I thought I'd share some of the recipes that I have found that look really good! I'm making one now( Banana Cream Cheese Pie). But I will post this other recipe that my friend posted on my facebook that looks delicious! It is called Gingerbread Cheesecake Bites.


1 (30 oz) package Pillsbury Gingerbread Cookie Dough (refrigerated section)
4 oz cream cheese (room temperature)
2 cups powdered sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla
Roll two teaspoons of cookie dough into a ball for each cookie. Place balls of dough into paper liners mini cupcake/muffin pan. Make a well/indentation into each ball of dough with a flour dipped mini rolling pin or the back of a measurement teaspoon.
Beat room temperature cream cheese with powdered sugar. Stir in vanilla. Place filling into a piping bag, cut off edge of bag. Place one teaspoon or so of filling into each area of cookie dough.
Bake at 350 degrees for 9 minutes or until cookie tested with tooth pick comes out almost clean.
Don’t over fill the cookies with filling as they will rise when baked.
Let cool before removing from cupcake pan.


Don't they look good? Okay so my font just changed and I think it is because of the recipe that I copied and pasted but I'm not sure how to change the font back to where it was...oh well. Okay the other recipe I am currently waiting for it to "cool down" and it will be ready in 24 minutes but I still have to make the strawberry topping. I put 'cool down' in quotations because I didn't even cook it. I mixed everything and then I put it in the crust that I made(they suggested to buy it but I didn't want to) and then stuck it in the fridge.
this is the recipe:
Banana Cream Cheese Pie

Ingredients

  • 1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softened
  • 1/2 cup sugar
  • 1 cup mashed ripe bananas
  • 1 teaspoon lemon juice
  • 1 (8 ounce) container frozen whipped topping, thawed
  • 1 (9 inch) graham cracker crust
  • STRAWBERRY TOPPING:
  • 2 tablespoons white sugar
  • 1 teaspoon cornstarch
  • 1 1/4 cups sliced fresh strawberries
  • 5 drops red food coloring (optional)

Directions

  1. In a bowl, beat cream cheese and sugar until smooth. Combine bananas and lemon juice; add to cream cheese mixture. Fold in whipped topping. Pour into crust. Cover and refrigerate for 1 hour or until set.
  2. In a saucepan, combine sugar and cornstarch. Stir in strawberries and food coloring if desired. Let stand for 5 minutes. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat; cook and stir for 2 minutes or until thickened. Cool. Drizzle some over pie. Cut into wedges; serve with remaining topping.


As far as the graham cracker crust goes, I found a recipe that was really easy. One package of graham crackers, 1 tablespoon of pure vanilla, 1 teaspoon of cinnamon and 3 tablespoons of butter. I baked it at 350 degrees for 8 minutes. I'm going to take a picture but I'm currently debating if I want to make the Strawberry Topping or not. I've been debating about what would look good on top of this pie. I've thought of maybe some toasted coconut(which I don't have) or the rind of a lemon that is shredded but that too I don't have. Plus I was thinking well it is more banana than lemon so that is not the right solution...if anyone has any suggestions let me know. 

How I stumbled across this recipe was we had some ripe bananas and I didn't want to make more banana bread which is what I make almost every month and I wanted change. I found it on allrecipes.com which is a wonderful site! You can put in certain ingredients that you want to use and it will give you, depending on the ingredients, about 20 recipes. So I put bananas, strawberries and cream cheese and this recipe I thought was the best since I have frozen strawberries and ripe bananas. They had another recipe that looked really good but it required all fresh fruit but it was basically a fruit pizza but on a brownie!!! YUM! Oh the options in life. 

I honestly think that Heavenly Father wanted us to have a piece of the Celestial Kingdom on Earth and so he gave us wonderful foods! :) hehe I honestly don't know if that is the case but it sounds good. haha I love food so much and I'm started to experiment and try new recipes with foods that I know I enjoy.

This past Sunday I made a ham. We got it on sale and it was an 8 pound ham. Way yummy! It tastes like yummy bacon! I made it in a crockpot. The recipe called for ham( an 8 pounder you can adjust the amount that you buy in the recipe) and 2 cups of brown sugar. DONE...haha what it said was to put 1 1/2 cups of brown sugar on the bottom of the crockpot. Then put the ham flat part down and then rub the remaining brown sugar on the ham and let it cook for about 8 hours on low(we cooked it for 3 or so hours on low and then about 4 hours on high and it was uber juicy and the meat fell right off the bones! :)) At any rate we added an ingredient to this wonderfully easy recipe! We took a can of tidbit pineapple, poured the juice on the bottom of the crockpot before laying down the ham. Then we rubbed the brown sugar on it and poured the pineapple chunks over the ham. It ended up being DELICOUS! We've been using the leftover meat for sandwiches which has given us the opportunity to step up a notch or a few of them from peanut butter and jelly sandwiches! HAHA! Well I guess this enough for now...I hope you all try these recipes and let me know how they turn out! Also, if you have any really good recipes that you'd like to share, you can share them with me! ;) I just noticed I don't have pic of the ham...but take my word it was good. You can find it on allrecipes.com if you'd like. I am excited to try it again!



Monday, May 7, 2012

Frustrations of a Monday

So the week is starting all over again! :( Well I guess that is a good thing and a bad thing all mixed in one. I'm excited that another week is starting because that means I am that much closer to holding my daughter! However, Mondays in general just stink a ton this semester! I have to be at work by 5am and I am running around doing things until 6pm....well just kidding that is all things school and work related. But then I still have to have Family Home Evening and then also do some yard work or take care of things for the apartment complex(there is a lot to do for the apartment complex! If anyone knows how/what to do to get rid of dandelions let me know because we have a forest of them in our lawn! and I have to mow the lawn too..)

At any rate, this morning I woke up late and I was about 5 minutes late to work or so...but not only that, once I got to work, one of my co-workers didn't show up and that meant that 2 of us had to the work of 3 PLUS it is on our busiest day of the week! I think she was sick or something but so was my other co-worker who almost didn't come in as well! Talk about how rough of a morning I would've had! HOLY COW!!! I wouldn't have started the day or the week very well! :( But luckily he came in...I'm hoping he comes in this afternoon along with my other co-worker that didn't come in at all since because we stayed an hour later this morning we have to leave an hour earlier this afternoon...

I honestly don't understand the people in charge; they get made if you clock out late but they get made if you don't finish your responsibilities...in other words, a LOSE LOSE SITUATION...I SO can't wait for when I get my associates and I can be a medical assistant! :) But that is still a year away or so...I'm hoping to be able to get a job in a nearby nursing home to gain some experience but I'm wanting to wait until AFTER my daughter is born so that I can have some experience wiping butt's before I have to go wipe older people's butts...my mom has done it for years but I have to literal talk myself into it...but it would DEFINITELY pay more than what I am making now, which I must inform you would be WONDERFUL!! haha...

Well I'm glad I have this blog because I definitely feel better...I've thought about having a journal on the computer but for some odd reason the only thing that would make sense to me would be a blog and therefore...here it is...haha

Oh I almost forgot, this weekend we went down to Grace which is where my in-laws are from and we visited with my wife's grandma. We came to the realization that because of her grandma's health, etc. and no one is able/willing to help her out, for the most part, she probably won't be able to be at the hospital when Whitney gives birth to our daughter. That scared the living day lights out of me! I was strongly relying on my mother-in-law being there with us and my mom will be in Minnesota which she is planning on coming out a month after my daughter is born. But I became super nervous because then its only going to be two of us going through this exciting and nerve racking time in our lives by our selves without anyone there coaching us or letting us know that everything will be okay. I know that Heavenly Father will take care of us and help us do everything possible to make us feel comfortable and we both have the faith that everything will work out alright and technically we won't be alone. But it would still be nice to have some family with us, we weren't planning for that at all! But like I said, everything will work out and we have a wonderful doctor that will take care of us! So in the end, we'll have our daughter and we will have a stronger faith in our Heavenly Father! (Have I mentioned that I am really really excited for Julia to come? well I am!! haha) Well I should get some homework done...Hope you have a wonderful day!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Busy Life! and a quick update...

It's been quite some time since I've written but life has thrown a TON at me and I am just trying to get a breather! I'm not even remembering what the last thing was that I had said or mentioned or anything...

Wow! I just looked back and it had been over a month since I wrote something last and to top it off...TOO much has happened since General Conference!! Oh goodness, I guess I should get started...haha

Well I got a job working in Food Services again on Campus...however on Monday mornings I have to be at work by 5 in the morning and I work until 9am. Then I go back from 2 to 6 in the afternoon. I work 2 to six again on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday and I have Fridays and Saturdays and Sundays "off". I put off in quotations because of all my other responsibilities. :) Well, working at this job called Simply to Go has been a blessing in my life as I have been able to become a better person and wake up early and go to bed early. I love it! But it is somewhat stressful because I don't get all the sleep that I would enjoy to have. ;)

I received a calling or a responsibility in an LDS Temple and I am basically in charge of making sure that people's weddings run smoothly within the Temple. That has been another blessing in my life and I've realized that I love helping people!

During 'Spring Break' I had another responsibility thrown at me. I am now the on-site manager for our little four-plex. I have no experience in this field but I am grateful for the opportunity to work in this position and have a little rent reduction and put it on my resumé! :) It's been frustrating to do things since I don't have any idea what it is including but we have been trying to find a new tenant for one of the apartments and we haven't found any. The landlord lives in California so it was quite difficult getting in contact with her around my busy schedule and hers. However, after getting in contact with her we still haven't found anyone to move in. It is a really nice two bedroom apartment with washer and dryer hook-ups for $500 a month. It includes cable, internet and all other utilities except for cable. It's the cheapest apartment for this size that we've found in the Rexburg area. So if you know anyone in the area, let them know and let me know! I'd be glad to show off the apartment!

We had recently moved wards and I had been praying for the Lord to use me in the best way possible and to hopefully give me a calling within the ward so that I can get to know the other members of the ward and it will allow me to serve those within my ward. Well, after all of these changes and trying to take 15 credits this semester I was like, "I think I'm okay with not having a calling this semester." Right after I thought that, Whitney and I got called as the Family History teachers for Sunday school. I figured if Heavenly Father was okay with it and of course He knows what I can handle then bring it one! :) That has a funny story in and of itself but I don't have time to write it now...maybe later if someone asks me...;)

Well after all of these things I was trying to go through the past couple weeks with my new classes and for the first time try to take 15 credits and on Tuesday I gave in and realized, with Heavenly Father's help that I am not able to get the grades that I want/need and keep all of these credits. So I dropped a 3 credit class that started at 8am on Tuesdays and Thursdays and I feel way more relaxed and I feel like I am able to actually handle the work load given me. This now means that I am taking 12 credits and we will be in Rexburg for a little longer but my wife told me that she is fine with it. I love my wife, she supports me with everything!

Life has been hectic like I said and because it is so hectic and busy time FLIES by!!! Whitney and I have been married for 8 months as of yesterday and that is CRAZY TO BELIEVE!! But also our dear Julia Rose is due in 2 months TODAY!!! Exactly!! I am so so excited! I can't wait to hold my daughter!!  Well I should probably head to bed and hopefully I will be able to post a blog more frequently. Good Night! :)

Saturday, March 31, 2012

General Conference!

Okay, so since finals week is arriving Monday...I know that my stress levels will be even higher than they were during my last post. I've come to realize that I need to remember the happy times in my life, the times that truly gave me great joy such as serving as a full time missionary in the Brazil João Pessoa Mission and marrying my lovely wife Whitney. I've come to the conclusion this past week that since I decided that I wanted to get married and fulfill Heavenly Father's will, I decided that I should take on ALL the responsibilities that come with it instead of allowing my parents and in-laws to help. However, I've also noticed that they both are quite stubborn when it comes to things like that. I also realize that I have a lot to learn in the aspect of following the promptings that Heavenly Father gives me.

Today I was contacted at work by a guy that is very nice and kind who basically is offering me a job. I was quite estatic and I felt that it was an answer to my prayers and invited him to come over to explain what the job was exactly. I explained to Whitney what was happening and she was a bit skeptical as I was deep down but I was more excited to get into a job that would be beneficial for my family and I. I had been praying about it all day that Heavenly Father would help me discern between a good opportunity and one that would completely destroy my fiances. Unfortunately, this opportunity will destroy my finances if I continue or "give in" but I did receive an answer to a prayer it just wasn't the prayer that I thought it was. We had a good conversation when he first came over, but as he was preparing to share the movie that explains everything he made a comment that I will never forget. He said, "I don't know what it is about you but I just felt like I could talk to you and so I did." The answer that Heavenly Father gave me was a remembrance from my mission and what some of the families had told me as I taught them. They told me, "I feel so comfortable in talking with you. I feel like I can talk to you and you ALWAYS have the answer!"

Okay, so I don't always have the answer but I definitely have something about me that makes people feel comfortable when they talk with me. Having that thought in my mind it is a great confirmation that this major change that I am making, is something that Heavenly Father wants me to do. He doesn't want me to be completely in the medical field as a doctor which has been my dream since I can remember. He doesn't want me to be a Pulmonologist, lung doctor. He wants me to be a Marriage and Family Counselor. The major that I have decided to change to is Professional Clinical Emphasis in Marriage and Family Studies. It is just what I need to do. If people feel comfortable around me, than why shouldn't I use my talents to help as many of Heavenly Father's children return to His presence by helping them with their families or marriages that seem to be not working out the way they are supposed to.

I may not be super smart, as I know I am not, but I know that when Heavenly Father tells me to do something I will. If I don't follow the promptings that Heavenly Father gives me I would not be as happy or as blessed as I am today, even with all of the stresses that are in my life. I have a beautiful wife that I wouldn't have if I didn't follow the prompting I received to marry her, nor would I have a baby girl coming into the world in three months! I  wouldn't have served a mission to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ with many awesome people that I love and miss dearly! Nor would I have the wonderful blessing and opportunity to work in the Temple every Saturday from 9am to 430pm to assist in weddings. I am so grateful for the promptings that Heavenly Father has given me.

Now for my reasoning for the title of this post, it is because tomorrow(Saturday) and Sunday The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is having its biannual General Conference where we have the privilege and opportunity to hear from a modern day prophet who is Thomas S. Monson. He is a man called of God to guide us and direct us in these latter days! I am ever so grateful and excited to hear his counsel and the counsel of his counselors and also members of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles who are disciples of Jesus Christ! I am excited to find answers to questions that I have had and hopefully receive confirmation and more guidance for the things that I will be doing within the next 6 months! If anyone reading this would like to check out what the Prophet of the Lord has to say, you can go to www.lds.org and watch any of the 4 sessions! They are on Saturday from 10am to 12pm MST and 2pm to 4pm MST. Then on Sunday from 10am to 12pm MST and 2pm to 4pm MST. It is a wonderful opportunity but if you can't watch them at those times, that is okay because the recordings will be on this same website after the session has gone through. They will also be posting the conferences in PDF format if you would like to read them instead! It is a wonderful opportunity and I encourage all to watch at least one session this weekend! I pray for the well being of everyone and I hope that everyone receives many blessings from our Father in Heaven!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Hope...

Life is full of interesting events...I wish that I always knew the correct answer to things but for some reason I don't. It is probably better that way. I am excited for this day to end as it has been a pretty crappy one with no motivation to do anything. I hope I can find a new job soon and I hope that during my week of break that I will be able to rest up and have no worries. I hope that I will have the opportunity to have fun and not worry about anything! I hope that next semester won't be as hard as I am anticipating it to be. I don't understand some things that happen in my life or reactions that I get. But for some odd reason they happen and I have learn to live with them. Heavenly Father is really creative! He knew that we would have these "interesting" experiences and I think He hopes that we always succeed.

Stress sucks. haha It is so true and I'm able to take in a certain amount but after that amount, I no longer am able to handle it. I think we get over loaded with things and we can only take a that certain amount. Once that amount hits it seems that nothing goes right. What's funnier is we are supposed to help one another in our goals, trials, etc. Yet sometimes, I think it is some people's goals to make others lives that much more complicated. Yet I know, this too shall pass. Therefore, I think its better to go to bed and not worry about things for the rest of this day and tomorrow will be better! :)

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Well...since its been a month I guess I should post a blog...haha Well Whitney and I recently have switched wards. A ward is basically a congregation from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and it is basically a form of a family unit, in a way, kinda. Anyway, our boundaries were changed and we experienced our first Sunday in the ward today. It was super quiet as there were a total of 8 babies and two or three pregnant ladies, one being Whitney. We came from a ward where basically everyone had a kid in the ward so of about 75 families each one had at least a kid. There were a couple families in the ward that had three or four kids. But it was super quiet in our new ward and no one really talked to us. We hope that things change and that we will be welcomed a little better. I don't think Whitney will have much of a problem as the Relief Society(the biggest woman's organization in the world) Presidency already contacted her this past week and she received a visit today. I on the other hand wait to receive any contact from the ward. I hope that we get some visits as we still haven't been visited by any home teachers since we've been married, going on 7 months. I hope that I get a calling in the ward to be able to learn people's names and such but that may not happen as well as I work in the Temple every Saturday. But at least Whitney is being included as that is more important for her to feel welcomed than me. I'm able to get through any situation or make friends with people even if they don't want to! ;) haha

This past Friday we had some friends come over and it was a sort of "open house" type deal and it was VERY interesting. It was primarily Whitney's friends that came but I learned a lot about a major that I never would have considered that actually sounds like something that I could/would enjoy to do. I'm going to be changing my major to Marriage and Family Studies with an emphasis in Professional Clinicals. In other words, I'll be helping marriages and families become better and stronger and hopefully I'll be able to work with LDS services which would be AMAZING!!! I feel that it is something that it is something that Heavenly Father would approve of. I loved helping families on my mission come unto Christ and perfect their marriages and I think that this will be a wonderful continuation of that! :) Also, with these friends coming over I have an "in" with a grocery store nearby that would be wonderful to work at! It will build my resumé and I'll also be able to work during the breaks! I'm excited! I have to turn the application in tomorrow as they are hiring real soon!  I have a lot to do as finals week is approaching and way too much to do. But life continues no matter what and Heavenly Father NEVER gives us trials that we cannot handle! I am super confident of that and therefore I know that it is possible to return to Heavenly Father's presence as long as we do what He asks of us! I hope you have a great week or time until I write again...oh and our baby Julia Rose arrives in about 3 months! :)